SaltWaferGuestOctober 25, 2021 at 2:27 am
I think there are bigger issues going on. It sounds like you’re feeling very negative about your future and miserable about your present. Saying you want to experience a few nice things before you die… do you feel like you have experienced no nice things? All of this sounds like depression to me. I think you and your husband need to set aside the question of whether to try for now, in favor of you getting the psychological help you need to feel happy, stable, and hopeful about your future (whether with kids or without).